Pleasepleasepleasepleaseplease take away this pain, I've suffered more than enough pain for the rest of my life grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrradasdasdasd

Gastric problems again, super sharp pains on and off, throw in scar pain and I feel like killing myself everytime the pain comes back zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

The price I have to pay for my siblings' sins.


Sigh.


I fully understand why my brother said he was so excited to go army, even if there was physical torture. It's far better than the mental torture I have to undergo at home.


Maybe I should go find a job :/

Just something a little random to freshen up the blog!

I've achieved something! Omg!

See, last time, I could only jog 3-5 minutes, no more, slow jog. SLOW. Jog.

Then I gradually improved and could jog for 10 minutes!

Now I can jog for 20 mins!


It's really something amazing, it feels.. very refreshing. It makes me more determined to lose weight and feel more.. Determined.


Now if I can only be determined about studying Security+ >_>"""

Off to chalet I go!!! :D

lalalala :D:D:D:D

An analogy of growing up...

It's like... Lyra Belacqua, from The Golden Compass storybook, forcefully abandoning herself from her daemon (soul) while having to enter the Underworld.

It is necessary, it is painful, and it is most definitely heart-wrenching. You don't want to do it at all, because it's alien.

But once the teeth-gritting process is over, you either become an empty shell, to join your fellow compatriots as a machine; or you become a much better person, with more flexibility and knowledge.

With these grim words, I encourage you to listen to the song. It features a Metal/Rock band performing a very soft Rock song, with deep lyrical meaning and a nice, soothing tune to go with it.

2 amazing things happened today.

1) Met jer on the train! Same carriage, same door! XD

2) Reed stood at the FEMALE toilet door and almost entered for 4 seconds while me jer and daniel was staring at him XD